I've been thrown a few curve balls that have been difficult coming to terms with.
At 15, I was diagnosed with Complete Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome. Its a rare chromosomal disorder that affects sexual development. I'll go into more detail in another post to follow, because it is pretty complicated. Basically I was born with male chromosomes (team XY), but because of a mutation on my Y chromosome, I developed like a normal female. Needless to say, as a freshman in high school, this was a huge hurtle to overcome.
At 23, my dad committed suicide. He and I had a strained, and complicated relationship. I resented him for so much pain he caused in my childhood, but none the less, I still loved him unconditionally. I lost him before we were able to hash out all of our problems. That is something I have to live with, as well as coming to terms with the fact that he dies alone.
When 27 came around, I began noticing the first signs. It was slow at first, and attributed it to being over worked. I figured working 2 jobs had been wearing me down. I thought maybe I was anemic again. I questioned thyroid problems. Checked my cortisol levels, thinking maybe I had adrenal fatigue. Tested for gluten intolerance and celiac disease. Wondered if maybe I had mono, again. At one pointed, I questioned if maybe it was cancer. I was desperate for answers. I needed validation for the weak muscles, body aches, fatigue, irritability, and numerous other symptoms. I saw my primary care physicians on the regular, went to an infectious disease doctor, and finally a rheumatologist. I finally had an answer to my questions. But gained a hundred more. The rheumatologist confirmed, I have fibromyalgia. That day started my journey as a Fibro Warrior.
